Six Shades Sharper

Stepped In Life

To really uncover the manifold viewpoint which my speculative exercises in creative writing lead toward, it becomes necessary for us to take the tip of a clue and run to the ends of the iceberg with it.

Given that the real nature of our solar system is an order of magnitude different from how most
of us are likely to perceive it, it's quite enough to scale up the relative accuracy, that is to say, refocus it to clearly see just how ignorant we naturally are to begin with, take a close look in the mirror, and smile.

Knowledge is a process which begins with the lack of
knowledge, and that lack is what we use to define ignorance.

The truth, as it appears to our normal everyday thinking about the "experienced knowledge of our solar system"(and by extension, the galaxy it belongs to and the universe as well, of course) always falls short of the real magnificence on display not by one single order of magnitude, but by so many orders of magnitude as to leave one stunned in abject shock reeling with the inability to further process it all.

Even when we compare things which seem different by suggesting they are "like night and day"to each other, it doesn't come close to capturing the sheer degree by which we are so wrong about everything in this life--beginning with our real place in it.

By "it" I mean the cosmos of course--what else could I possibly have meant?

It.  Here.  Now.  Reality.  The Universe.  You.  Me.  This planet.  History.  Our lives. Life.
All of us.  We.  This.  This thing we share.   This street which has no name with our own names
already fading from it.  This address to which is prescribed one resident.   There...now.  All better, world.

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The end of the iceberg is a magnifying glass fore cast to melt 
the next time this star comes
rotating into view from behind the frozen armor of our world.   

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We must perforce gaze through it quickly before it melts away completely.
The big Reveal is relatively simple once it's been given to a life form to grasp.
The problem is one of having to necessarily remember or recall to be exact
the stupendous breadth of our cosmos while being navigated upon the course
of our exhalation's depth, a combination (our beholding the universe and our selves)
that rarely gels into clarification for any creature caught up in the experiencing.

Yet clues are collected in the cuffs of our clothes.
If a fading colored bead falls in the forest, hear it
echo like a cannonade of pealing thunder!
Know the leaves dessicated and blown back down
trampoline shattered have been scoured and cleansed
of all pox populi but the parts which remained a grippin'
thus scarcely yet barely meaning 'more than is god given enough'
or another word for plenty which while we're on the subject
of words that's what they all mean ever last lovin' one of em, PLENTY.

The word means plenty.
Plentiful.  Plentiplutarian.

It all translates, roughly, to

"That which we are capable of imagining always equals the lowest common variable
denominator plus itself...we are capable of imagining, at the very most, one thing plus itself,
which means we are capable of imagining two things; but that is where the capacity for us to imagine
anything else drops off abruptly to absolute zero, nill, null, void, empty set, nothing, zilch, nada, zero."

Unless we try harder, that is.  That's jumping ahead of ourselves.
The way things really are is at least a billion times more interesting than how we normally think of it.

UNLESS, again...that is,  We.  Pull.  Ourselves.  Together.  But what does that even mean? 

Must we pull ourselves together individually before we get it so that we can pull ourselves together as a people?  Think on it.  Thank you.  It's necessary to begin at the beginning...and that means every single one of us.

Is it possible that there is One Meaning to this thing which no matter how many other ways of slicing it into different and separately contextual sub-definitions manages to nonetheless capture the totality of possible spirits manifested within it?   The answer is a resoundingly and infinitely echoing into underlapping silence YES and I am pleased to know this backwards as well as forwards.  SAY-YES.

JUST LIKE our Solar System is not TWICE as amazing and complex and mindblowing as we formerly thought it was, and not THREE times more so nor even FIVE times more so and no not even TEN TIMES more amazing than we formerly thought, and not one hundred times more so nor one thousand times more, but somewhere on the order of a HUNDRED THOUSAND TIMES more astonishing than we formerly thought possible.   And then some.

Just like this teensy weensy almost insignificant observation, we may infer that most queries into the unknown nature of our existence most likely as well would provide insights so stunning as to be beyond our capacity to even imagine?  Oh wait--it is.  By definition.

See, it's NOT that we cannot imagine a supermassive, titanic amount of God-staggering data; it's specifically and exactly that our ability to do so is necessary not for the task of imagining complexities we enjoy fabricating in our mind's eye, but for the actual necessity of understanding truth, which ITself may appear staggering on a level far too many times removed, in terms of complexity of execution, from that which we are capable of being programmed to normally comprehend; but for a built in genetic clause, which, when activated, triggers an elemental information-exchange program which raises the level of awareness in the mind of its host until the saturation point causes a flash-pan messianic complex, often with results far superior to those which were anticipated.

The fundamental paradoxes we've detected at the base levels of quantum and classical physics point toward a deeper design which accounts for how  THE BIG PICTURE frames itself:  from aligning two mirroring halves--the micro- and macro- aspects of our universe.

We human beings exist at the cutting edge level of where the macroverse and microverse appear to meet.   In a real manner of speaking, our feet are mired down in the thriving, living muck of the microverse itself just seething up and out and away from the planet core of our beautifully idiosyncratic world spinning in revolution about our yellow Dwarf star, itself on a vastly more gigantic scale circling about the central galactic core of the Milky Way, a barred spiral galaxy amid billions; while our heads tower upthrust through the clouds in our mind thinking our eyes can "see the view above the world" with a clarity that often mistakes the real nature of what we are examining.

For when we study the remainder of our universe; that is, every other star in our own galaxy as well as which might be contained in every other galaxy out there--bar none--we may truly lend the focus of our gaze to the most magnificent mystery which has haunted our species since we first crawled out of the brine to stand upon these sandy shores and dream.  We are staring at nothing less than Death itself.    

In order to direct our attention towards and examine carefully with our own eyes that phenomenon known as Life (from which we ourselves appear to have stepped in to remain relatively unscathed for the time being, at least individually as far as we can tell) it becomes necessary to cast our gaze down at our feet onto the ground and pay strict attention to the vast aspect of this earthly dominion we have either inherited, or to be quite frankly put out enough to suggest, that this terraformed planetary habitat has been unfortunate enough to have received our rather rude and thoughtless imposition on its once, shall we say, more  pristine original condition...

All of which is to say, after a manner of pointing out, here on this isolated blog Exorlyric on Google's blogger domain,  that the common denominator appearing throughout different examples of depictions which convey how things really are as contrasted against how they have been understood by most of us,  is mainly that the difference between the reality and our perception of it is by an order of magnitude so unexpected that it would leave us all dumbfounded with astonishment and amazement bordering on stupefaction, were we to be exposed to it.    

It's important to point this single fundamental principle out.  The Truth Is Far Crazier Than We Think, Even If It's Simple.  It's a point of reference which might better be cited as a point of reverence--why-?--because of the altogether Far Crazier Platform Of Amazement which reality appears to operate on--which, regardless of how any living sentient creature on this Earth might perceive it to be, is and always shall remain weirder and more unexpected than anything any one of us could ever imagine.

The mere fact our existence on this spinning ball of rock, metal and plasma apparently caught up in billions of years orbiting about our nearby yellow Dwarf Star is still an ongoing phenomenon mutually enjoyed by us all and which has yet to be and may not ever become accounted for by science, I say, is evidence enough for even the most rigorous logician, doctor, or priest to sit before in a moment of silence and share each other's speechlessness before it all.   


~Refreshest This Page~

The whole of our UNIVERSE can be said to be made up of two halves:
1) The Physical (outer) universe and
2) The Nervous (inner) system,

these two halves performing what is closest to mirroring each other there is, only both images working as functional entities in actual existance, without reflection, although each remaining a part of the whole. These two systems transpire throughout each other, but do not occupy the same space. They remain in all areas but the poles seperate from each other.

*(thus the poles are the tollgates between these worlds.)*more later

The poles of the physical universe are as a pair only half formed, with the conclusive pole existing in temporal stasis (if not for this dim facet of existence shuttling the random cross-circuits, our future/destinies would be entirely alien concepts to us, buried in the permanent blackness beyond).

Because of this temporal-stasis-existence (which has to do with the physics of time-development) we as living creatures are offered the physical possibility of learning and possibly affecting our future/destinies. It's up to us to comprehend the withstanding of temporal travel through seemingly illogical space via timelessness.

We humans, as vessels for individual nervous systems, differ from NON-nervous systems, otherwise known as inanimate matter, in that we do not displace that portion of universe we occupy: unlike rocks or metals--matter dense enough to displace their areas. The flesh of our vessels actually occupies an area of space around our nervous systems (or inner-systems) that is a "buffer zone" that allows for an alloted percentage error in our construction through time; in other words, our physical bodies are capable of routing through zero-dimensional points or one-dimensional lines as well as three-dimensional spaces, but only so long as they remain alive; a dead body is identifiable for the reason that it suddenly displaces the area it occupied. For this reason the dead displace the earth. In this sense the living more resemble ghosts or wraiths that can move through temporal spaces.

Just as great distances must be breached in our physical universe to arrive at the toll-gate of a pole (literally the end of our universe), so must great inner distances be traveled for one to arrive at a pole of the soul. However, as one who has traveled to a pole in his inner being can testify, the "great distance" is cancelled out through the equation of hyper-mathematical travel.

Note* The "pole(s)", though at opposing ends, on a sphere, are so only in that this is the arrangement as represented graphically onto a "sphere". The reality that said "sphere" equates to positions the "pole(s)" in the center.

A "pure sphere" in actuality has its center and all points in relation to each other occupied in one relativistic area; its graphic "roundness" like the ball of an orange occupies seperate points in space only because this is the only message our brains can interpret into understanding a sphere's total components; to state that a sphere is nothing like a ball would not be much of an inaccuracy. In other words, the North and South poles of a "global" sphere are no more on the outside at opposite ends than they are on the inside at center.

Our "temporal" image of the conclusive "pole" of our universe indicates a sequential process of interaction along a binary line: a "will" or "will-not" resolution, in other words: the conclusive pole (denoted S-pole as opposed to the origin pole denoted N-pole) will in time either form itself or it will not (in which case ordered completion will occur or it won't). In the case that it doesn't, one could say that chaos proved dominant and our universe might excise itself into formlessness. In the case that it does, only speculation provides the answer, but to have our universe ordered into its complete "sphere" would indicate our "arrival", if you will, (through space/time) to that unique "toll-gate" connecting us with other universes. Nothing less than the doorway to the promised lands.


The previous statement is true only relative to our position in spacetime development. To not allow for developments and/or changes in the integration of our space/time/universe's physical make-up would be blindly presumptuous of us. For this reason statistical predictions fall into an unstable category of knowledge: i.e, they remain effective only so long as our present moment is concerned; indeed, statistics, as a branch of science, is at most a fleeting pursuit, if not totally unstable. [Note* The concepts of "gambling" and "playing the stakes" fit in conjunction with our ideas of Hell for this reason.]

If our world were to complete itself, the structure and integration of ordered reality would develop into the second stage of the fundamental wavelength, which is the "sine" or opposite of the "bell-curve", our present fundamental state which allows for the chaotic arrangement of variables we have so brilliantly graphed out in our probability charts.

Yea, when and if our poles connect, we will find ourselves as precisely integrated variables in a synchronously arranging world; NO LONGER will random determination construct a "bell-curve"; but rather, the INVERSE of a bell-curve (sine) will begin to generate, and the opposing polarities of INSTABILITY vs. STABILITY will increase dramatically affecting each other in wild synchronous abandon. Mediocrity and all those variables brought to the forefront of the "co-sine" era will decrease dramatically into seldom sporadic occurances. This is to say, 'probability' will become the "exception" and 'synchronicity' the "rule".

{Note of interest: The yin-yang symbol is a more accurate graphic representation of a pure "sphere" or our total universe: the two "eyes" representing the "poles" (being both inner and outer) and the central division representing the wavelength broken into "cosine" and "sine".}

The simple experiment of stirring a cup of tea and then observing its cyclonic surface from the proper angle will result in the ability to visualise a "perfect" yin-yang reflection, complete with eyes, in the ordered maelstrom of torque induction.


Fracture reigns.
Seperation oversees.

Gulfs wreathe in between
we are not all that are
seperated by abyss
every moment is
the focal point
of every condition is
all things have a unique value
there is a spirit at the center
of all things that dictates
the thing's destiny
the spirit is how the thing
relates to its environment
the abyss seperates all things
the abyss lies within cellular walls
at the core of every moment
within each cell's abysmal walls
lies the compound
of ((confrontation) and (elusion))
confronting and eluding
this is a necessary compound
utilized for the fabrication
of a field of static
that enables (the abyss)
to be crossed
the temporary
(closing) of the circuit
this flow, electrical in nature
a rudimentary form of (life)
(infestation) (intelligence)
from man's (perspective)
is entirely fraudelent
with an essential self-prejudice:
(intelligence) is relative
(by nature, I don't think man
is very (intelligent)).

Balance relates. Relations balance.
Man's basis of intelligence
is far too (exclusive)
to be taken seriously
by anyone (conformity,
brain-washing, rote-memory,
and the mass-media stripping
of identity's creative thought
seem to be what the major portion
of this world's nations are up to).

There is no (standard) by which
(men) can rely on to prove
a correlative point.

(Man) is not alone. (Men) are not men.

The Body, too, is split asunder
into a myriad shatterweb
of tribal factions.

Just as each (individual) body
contains within a myriad fracture-
webbing of (its) identity, shatter-
mirrored into an endless array
of possible (selves).


Thus the often overwhelming
powers that the (current) (age-less)
individual must (confront/elude)
in his huge world.

Focus (sometimes) exposes insanity
into a relative degree of completely
rational behavior, while revealing
(conformity) and (socially accepted
behavior) as being activities which
might be better classified as
((irrational)/(insane)) when
one considers that (focus) of
the (true) (unique) spirit
of the matter may expose it
as actions whose participation in
can only lead to (some)
inevitable scenario (whose spirit)
has been (injected) from (those who
are in control) with no other intention
but to (culture) a submissive race of
(cattle) from which they may draw
(extract) their (justified) wealth.
(This) pisses me off.
may eighteen nineteen ninety one



cycles of command
sattelites and planets
women and tides
possession and distortion
sun bursts flooding
nova shell expanding
passing through for moments
birth of forces
minds of light
vectors gain momentum
history as story
attraction and addiction
gravitation and magnetism
waves of force
cycles of change
suspension of memory
and its slow dissolution
reformation of disintegration
time trapped in temporal stasis
energy burst of positive pulse
abstract pools we drift through
forces shaped around us because of us
paradox nova shell thinning bigger
intersection of nineteen eighty
three flash flood of earth
birth of gestalt
loss of memory
gain of force
focus of loci
intake of nutrients
bathing of energy
of commonality
passing of waiting
sorrows of watching
bloodlines of
of vision.


REFRESH this page

entrapment. its what's done. welcome. follow the flashlight beam scurrying down the stairs. into the basement. its where talk happens. talk about entrapment. the most efficient traps are the ones where those caught in them remain unaware they are trapped. now a new turn begins. it is well known that there is a war going on. what is not agreed on, is exactly who the key players waging it are. regardless of the answer, the one thing commonly possessed, whether agreed upon or not, is every individual caught up in this war - whether enthusiastic about it or not, and for better or worse - commands a great many pathways to happiness. denial seems a quick easy route. is hot tea favourable? there is always tea brewing in the basement.

And here we are dipping into the rapid streams of time with an inkwell for the river
and a sliver for an oar, ivory capped typing keys and a blackened pie roller, dust, and a quill for the paddle, a plastic keyboard electronic matrix as the nib to dip
in the icy current of a clear drinking creek seeking one direction from infinity into a moving stream of pixels that trick us into forgetting that from here on out we'll be mixing a tape of our lives up so to speak, that is, about what we want everyone to know about our lives. In the interest of taking honesty to its furthest
shattering point I've construed an elaborate method by which our seperate life story
threads might intertwine. I've devised many different angles from which you might piece together our story. Really I'll be giving you the important stuff and the
remaining parts can be plugged in with your own private details, considering that the rest will come naturally, I mean we're all human despite living together in the same place, right? Same place, haha -- good one, huh -- yah right. Earth is the same place last time I checked. That river was the same place last time we checked. That tectonic plate was in the exact same location since the dinosaurs.
And the shop across the street was full of whores. I know. But listen. Somehow they got rid of us. That's why we're standing here. Now. Abandoned. Don't you get it? Look, we're the only ones left. That much should be obvious to you. The fact I'm even having this conversation -that you're reading it, your eyes scanning the print- and leaving no comment reflecting indifference to the various injections we've suffered together, I mean it's all the same transfusion right -cuz you know they're using you and you're used to it- and they know it and it's part of a network and *phone rings*

unnecessary tribulations such as a door creaking open behind you when you know you're alone in the house, these things which keep you turning your head to watch the shadow on the floor creep up on you, they are whispers of the blind. A pack of blind forces is bundled up behind you. Stacked up on top of one another to form a rough man shape. You can't tell its there even when you look. Might've mistaken it for the bookcase. How do you know its not your shoelace. This is how everyone learns to wear the how to pretend you don't know face.

A great friend and shaman acquired some perfectly legal
salvia divinorum and offered some to me, yesterday. I was led down to the basement chill room of my home. We sat on the comfy bed. I propped up pillows behind me, in the corner, so I could lay back and rest my head. My best friend the urban shaman brought out the mudclay pipe, forged from his friend's back yard in Louisiana. He packed the fingertip formed bowl with 15x salvia. I sat cross-legged on the mattress. He set his iPod to some hemi-semi music, some kind of left/right brain wavelength inducer. After he pushed play I set fire to the bowl and inhaled the smoke. It didn't seem to have an effect--yet again, this being the 2nd time I tried it--(the 1st time, at 6x, to no avail)--so I asked for the pipe back and hit it again, being urged to "keep the flame on it, burn it good" so I kept the flame on it, burning it good and continued with a great inhalation. This one did the trick because after exhaling things started to happen to me. Please bear with me as I attempt to describe what would normally be thought of as inherently impossible. What happened was the walls of my room--the room itself, I should say--thinned away to be replaced by another, different sort of room--one made of palm shoots and leaves, and situated much further south, in the tropical jungles of the Americas somewhere which resembled being alongside the Amazon. Although I could not quite focus visually with exactness on this seperate location, I could sense it directly about me, and it was packed with an urgency for me to immediately "get with the program" as Her Majesty was passing through--it was predominant that I show my respect by getting out of the way of her passage--and the only way to do this was for me to become the walls of the hut itself, as others around me were apparantly adept at doing. In the micro-instants during the imminence of this oncoming Procession, the molecules of my body succumbed to the powerful effects of the salvia, and my body began to stretch like taffy into palm shoots and leaves which smoothed out into the rectilinear architecture of the hut's walls and stilts--with my 'urban ego' rebelling the whole way. In fact, I could not complete the transformation because my individuality rebelled successfully--but not completely. I transformed four-fifths of the way into the wall of the hut itself, just in time to allow Her passage. I got the feeling that my partial transformation was enough, as a token gesture, to show my desperate attempt at cooperation. It must've been purely my instinctive Id that rebelled against it; I don't know, exactly. Because I got the feeling that She was not offended, merely charmed by my confused panic. There was a definite sense that I was a member of a tribe, down there. And that although I fumbled the ball, so to speak--my tribal cohorts patted me on the back afterwards, with laughs and big grins. The strange thing about it was, that the experience began to decay as it was peaking. I was subject to an intermittence, wherein on the one hand, I was distinctly aware of my tribal surrounds and the Procession which demanded I get out of the way by transforming into the wall, and on the other hand, I would come back to my room in the basement with its Phobia and Hellbats posters and mundane arrangements, such as the brass lamp, and the plastered-over concrete walls, and the bed itself upon which I sat. Before my face began pulling taffy-like into palm leaves and braided bamboo shoots, my 'urban self' would become startled out of the transformation, to look around me and attempt saying something--something I was half-aware came out of my mouth resembling foreign syrup more than English words. I could see Greg sitting on the far end of the mattress, looking on with concern, while his own face would momentarily be pulled palm-shootward, and I would look away towards the posters along the wall of my room with a sad sort of longing, and then I'd shudder involuntarily as my own body pulled itself into the architecture of the hut surrounding. There was one moment in which I seemed to have--for a split-second, at least--been fully dipped into the material wall of the hut itself--but I couldn't keep my ego down and my nose, eyes, face, and head would reform themselves out of the flatness as if struggling not to be drowned in it. There was a sense of unrelenting terror which stemmed not from any potential exterior source of attack, but rather, towards the idea that I was supposed to somehow exclude myself from this transaction; I rebelled at the idea that I could "travel to another (part of the) world" only at the price of becoming that world; my sense of individuality and its search for adventure--that is, its selfish quest for further titillation of the senses--simply refused to accept that, in order for me to accomplish such a voyage, I must perforce surrender my eyes to their transubstantiation into wood, into stone--into the surrounding world which I was given the opportunity to visit. I'll never forget how, in order to make way for the Procession, it was necessary for me to become the hut itself in which I squatted. I have learned that my ego holds on extremely tight to this world--this flesh. This existance is not one which I am inclined to let go of. I remember, early on in the salvia trip, that the hemi-semi new age music was just a distraction--it confused me. I removed the headphones abstractedly--that is, barely realizing I was doing so. I could hear the new age piping from the earbuds tossed over on the mattress by the wall. I remember standing up, and yearning to walk over there--toward the light entering the basement from the laundry room--somehow, I sensed that was "the way back" to my normal life. I wanted more than anything to come back. I knew this was going to be a very short trip, but I endured moments of uncertainty as to whether or not it would continue--whether or not I'd be able to return to my normal life. I also simultaneously was quite aware that this would all pass, soon. That it was ok--just go with it. The most intense part--the peak--was when I felt myself 80% transform into a wickerwork wall. It was like I was transforming into a kite or a painting. The sense that my skeletal structure converged with the framework and my skin and flesh stretched into the canvas was very strong. That I did not want to surrender to this transformation was equally strong. That the tribal cohorts on the other end thought it was funny I couldn't handle it, came through as well. Sure enough, before too long, the intermittent sensations--that of being aware I was simultaneously occupying two different spaces--faded, and gradually I was returned to the exclusive domain of my familiar basement room. It was certainly an unexpected experience, and that I naturally rebelled against it almost every step of the way has left me with the feeling I did something wrong, but Greg has assured me there is no wrong you can do, there is just going with the flow. Speaking of flow--yes, there was a definite sense of realigned gravitational pull, or magnetic flux influence against which it was futile to struggle. Greg later told me he saw me bend over at an odd angle, as if in deference to the electromagnetic harmonics. He also said for a bit I was speaking in tongues; I suspect it was my tongue failing to convey simple English. There was a feeling of my having been the polar opposite end of a tube--at whose other end existed my "tribal double". I also got the feeling that my urban shaman Greg temporarily occupied the same psychic space that my double's Shaman occupied, in their own ceremonial location further south in the jungles of the Americas. There was the lingering sense that, my tribal double merged into the wall more easily, but my own ineptitude held him back from being able to completely transform, or something to that effect. Again, there seems to have been no hard feelings that this "westerner" fumbled the transformation sequence. It never occured to me before today, that in order to see or apprehend or know the essence of God--remember, myth has it that we cannot ever see "His face"--that it would become necessary for us to change places, God and I. She and I. Lady Salvia, and I. The forces which define this great Spirit are the elements of our world, such as wind and fire. Such as water and stone. Earth, tree, magma, and rain. The Great Spirit animates all of these--and more. It animates us. But in order for us to even begin to comprehend its stature, its dimension--we must trade places with it. For it to arrive to our town and move down its streets, would require that we each get out of the way. Yet the way is every conceivable nook and cranny--including the sky. The only way by which we can remove ourselves from the way of Its passage, is to transform into the walls and trees themselves. To allow It the room it needs to pass through, we must by definition remove our physical bodies out of the way. We must trade places with Him--Her--see? Once She passes, we may regain our temporal bodies, and we may remember her Procession, and the wake it has left behind. It is in the eddies of this wake that we may see signs of Her having passed through: the ripples in the sand and upon surfaces of water, the leaves strewn along the road. The windswept patterns in fields of wild grass. I remember when the Procession finally passed us by, it was distinctly reminescent of a giant snake passing by. An anaconda larger than the village, sliding in between the grass huts. Yet despite distinctly sensing this passing serpent, I could not get a sighting of it, just the knowing it was passing, and that everyone in the village had surrendured into the framework of the walls to allow its passage. Today I think this spirit is merely serpentine. That is to say, it is not a snake specifically, but rather, has snake-like attributes. Rather like Time, I should think. The way time passes us by in a linear fashion--is most serpent-like. I fancy She is like this, or at least, the hem of her dress must be stitched with Time. I feel as if I participated in a ritual in which we all donned Her clothes in order to allow Her naked passage through our vicinity. Now that I have returned Her garments I'll never look at the wind the same way again. Even if I always somehow knew the bare elements comprised this great Spirit men have vaguely identified as God, I never fully realized how the wind and rain were its scarves and skirt, the mountains and earth its body, and the trees unshaved stubble. I never knew we could trade places like we did. Now that this realization has dawned on me, I feel death is somehow less mysterious, and more like just another part of me. A part I am saving for last.


edit eight

In this scoop thoughts are inserted.
Through our eyes it gets perverted.
Underneath skies we're relatively fit.
I'll keep repeating our story here.
You just keep reading it, you hear.
Please don't give me any shit.
I like to write in measured couplets.
On the right is where you usurp it.
Below the murk await the dungeons.
The left sentence can be a deft menace
to the attentions of roving eyes
focused to perfection through skies
in front of us. Be wise, curmudgeons.
All the sisters behind thee can't hide
beneath pleasures mistaken for the norm,
behind sorrows for all our tomorrows.
Step from the moving train to the platform.
Don't forget the key that will help you unlock.
Imprint the blossom of your brain upon
the lid of a crowded memory box.
Reflected your face will be upside down.
Open and a mirror may reveal your frown,
red velvet lining will absorb the shock.
The brightest shine won't illumine talks.

And there I went dipping into the spent streams of time with a spilled inkwell for the river source and an old quill for the paddle, a plastic keyboard electronic matrix for the nib to dip into a moving stream of pixels, from here on out I'll be mixing that tape up so to speak about my life, that is, about what I want you to know about my portion of it. In the interest of taking honesty to its furthest limits I've devised a few different angles from which everyone might piece together the story. Really I'll be giving out the important stuff first and the rest will come naturally, I mean we're all human despite living together in the same place, right? Same place, haha -- that's a good one -- Earth is the same place last time we checked -- right -? The point of the matter being simple. No such thing as the same place twice. Don't believe in naughty or nice. Wanna drink wine better make it from rice. The bees are dying from an incorperated heist. You wanna talk robbery. Its called passing the buck. And if you ask me again I won't give a fuck. The reason things stay the same can't be proven. Its like trying to measure a hologram as its woven. Don't talk to me about illusion. I know relativity can be confusing. Einstein postulated imaginary time. I don't even know if he knew it rhymed. My calculations always come out the same. Like there's a refraction coming out of my membrane. A higher distraction I'm too blurry to see sane.
So let me try to get you to understand me. There's an entire universe out there I'm a part of. Stars grow deep in my heart so to speak. Isn't it this way for everyone.

I've given a lot of thought to Books. Here Now Take a look.

fuel to burn a fire at night, or a fire in the daytime too
leaves shaved from tree limbs, and regrowing out through you
doorstops and table levellers, long after midnight revelers
the trimmed fringes of the wilderness, shepherding lost children
bound codas no one is bound to, sounding frozen codices
found knowledge kept for the lost, around a chosen god he sees
silent sentinels protecting oblivion, assigning angels
an industry at whatever the cost, decanting devils
a collection of expostulations, safety lockets
the filing cabinet of dreams, fits in pockets
an endless succession of membranes, diaries for the insane
a countless number of spines, speaking in tongues of the times
litany of titles and bylines, receding into shadow
imprinted stains swallowed by darkness, a mass possession
footnotes of the human brain, circumnavicision
additional remote memory storage, zero emission battery power
life preservers in stormy weather, birds of an emissary's feather

Artefacts assembled with devotional care, sprung up from the very air
distributed throughout every household, too big for a mouse to hold
passed along from hand to hand yet never eroded, in memory recorded
generating multiple copies thus naturally grown, in shop windows shown
command higher value when marked with creator's blood, bandaged
the true race of masters to which humanity is subservient, finest wood
totemic avatars of our exorcised demonology, sprouts of meteor showers
infectious phials of virulent memes, a challenge to correctly gauge
dangerous vessels for unstable dreams, as if written by elves
the batteries of a motherlode of power, shattered into many shards
all of the buildings in the kingdoms of language, written with an axe
the city of Babel itself, sown with murdered fertilizers
towers to be ransacked or guarded, pronounced on landscapes as ruins
patches along our insulation's cracks, the blueprint for many a scheme
our woven fabric of armor, distilled so that no one will harm her
what keeps us safe or vulnerable from attacks, a fortress for children
what sees us peering deeply at them in our dreams, we've left behind

I've given some thought to Dreams. Why don't you see what I mean.

"Tracking along into deepest held nighttime instilled in such distant harmonics the pinprick of gestation wakes up to a sonic awareness of premeditated doom that echoes like thunder throughout all the room and the last thing suspected detonates in the rest as the carbon based immolation molds the statues of ash erected in memorial of the seeds planted fast which escaped through the cracks of the solid rock upon which all the rest settled down on to be lost in due time as their children's children dried out into husks on the plain discovered eventually by distant relatives who sang their song around bonfires crackling up into the starry night sparks launched in defiance of gravity's illusion depending on the perception's confusion which is only to say in a manner of proof that hope is a flower that will always be grown as long as there's soil in which its seeds have been sown so the tilling & telling of this unusual tale is a necessary exercise in weaving this spell so that all those who read it may know quite well there is nothing to worry about so best arise and dispell it at all costs or our very lives are at stake whatever you do don't mistake the message for the means or the other way around because if we fuck it all up our legacy gets run into the ground and buried for ever and all eternity lost all for nothing to swallow and chew and spit out our husks to be dried on the beach and dissolved into nothingness simply out of reach of the evermore circuit only a hand's breadth away a gap far too distant to cross if faith is lost along the way so never forget to remember this dream is always there reminding us clearly a scheme concocted by grandparents wishing well deems passed on hand by mouth by ear that to get there all that's required is each gap be crossed once from father to son or from brother to friend let the chain remain unbroken until the end which is the only illusion worth considering pretend so that this pilgrimage throughout the stars will permanently extend on its unravelling course through a multidimensional gyroscope helix ensigning the very document of space with an imprint registered in reality's fabric that is our mutual duties to face whether together or apart and suffering stigmas applied as decals of a sunlit deterioration, a sort of alchemy of so much more than on the eightth day the sun being sundered from the caustic sky by the bitter vapours poured from the raw throats of industry over the munitious scorched and shattered hill line overlooking a desolate, despairing people milling shoved together in a mob slowly advancing all in the same direction through the twisted corridors of a shining labyrinth of reflected stainless steel razor sharpened on the mills of corporate executive butchers grown in the vats of suburban asphalt and chemical conglomorates concocted in a diabolic stew of an alchemical purification process stretched out for so many generations its original intention lost & twisted into the transubstantiated and wholly transformed resurrected carcass of a flayed bastard muleman offspring of an eviscerated holy whore whose death throe ministrations from her row of lactic teats suckles the donkey saviour into a down syndrome mutant politician elected by the inevitable force of relentless magicks cast upon the descendents of the enemies of Lucifer the fallen one extemporized into the only logical course of action which was to take matters into his own horns so to speak and grab the God by the balls in a simple gesture of karmic balancing delivering a vengeance so purified his untouchable essence is vapourized in a cathartic instant of transformative energy crackling dark matter in an antiseizure of a carnalized coup de etat resulting in the impending uprising of the new order of emblackened power having usurped the stagnating empire of filth and corruption replacing it clean with the victorious new mantle of unprocessed evil uplifting its magnanimous head to dessicate the stain of hypocrisy left from the previous rulers of inbred weakness and replace it with the solid impeccable foundation of stone upon the black forces of eternal entropy worshipped and gathered as a battery charge of pure hatred will draw out the vitality of compassionate enemies rendered impotent from the very power they so pitifully pay homage to," the voice
echoed through my head as I awoke up sweating in my bed. What sort of sick dream was that? Something about black fortresses and purified coup de etats resulting in a Luciferian uprising...

Discovered that, when uninstalling old software from your head, remember to begin with those most recently installed and work backwards, like a reverse layercake. Don't foget to empty recycle bin. And you're good as new. Only one hundred and thirty five dollars, billed to your electronic web account. But they'll never get those symantec bits out. Haha I'm just kidding. Our lives are nothing like computer systems, that's a myth. Computer systems merely resemble our lives. Our heads. The way we unmake our beds. And never lie down in them twice. It's not the same bed, it's not the same river, it's not the same head, it's not the same bitterness, it's not the same headdress, it's not the same cleverness, it's not the same anything, it's not the same bling bling, it's not the same corruption, it's not the same eruption, it's not the same consideration, it's not the same alliteration, it's not the same expedition and it's not the same cognition. It's not even the same degree of maintenance that affects the same results or effects. It's not the same anymore. And it can never be the same again. There can never be the same amount of difference. There can never be the same amount of inference. There can never be the same degree of anything. It can never be the same again for everything. We can never be sane again because there is no constant for sanity. We can delve into sanity further and establish the possibility of fair weather. But the clouds might develop to blot out the sunshine that otherwise pronounced the clear outline of our shadows. If these are the conditions in sanity, imagine the conditions without. You can't. Because there is no such thing. As sanity. It's all in our heads like a dream. Or a vanity. Like a scheme. That we planned, you see. Only no scheme ever unfurls as planned. We all know that, deadpan. So what's in a scheme. Nothing but a flowering idea. And we all know what they say about flowers. Flowers have no hope for tomorrow.